If I was honest with myself, I've probably been dealing with a little bit of depression. It seems to be stemming from selfishness...a pity party for myself of where I am and what I am without. The frustrating part is that I know it...I know that I am NOT the center of the world, that life is NOT all about me and that GOD's timing, ways and thoughts are NOT my own! So why do I continue to wallow and miss out on what's going on around me?!?
I'm slowly coming around. Yesterday morning was a beautiful picture of what I've been missing while in my self absorbed state. After doing our morning devotion (praising Jesus for the God Time cards the kids get from church!), Kate was sharing about a little girl from church. It was a long story of how Kate really wanted to get to know her, but was too shy to talk. Then finally one Sunday they talked. As talk of school began, they realized they were going to the same school and hoped to be in the same class. Then first day of school...they WERE in the same class and now we are best friends Mommy. (of course everyone is her best friend except for the boys) Anyway, across the room Blake says "That's a God thing. That's how He rolls!" SMILE!
Same morning after dropping Blake off, Kate and I are listening to the radio. Her favorite song these days is God's not Dead by Newsboys. (Thank you Papaw for the cd!) Mind you this song is not playing as we go down the road. She says to me: "Mommy, you know what the people who sing God's not dead, He's surely alive are missing?" Surprised I said No. With a huge smile one her face she says "ME" pointing to herself then BELTING out the chorus! SMILE!
So today, I'm praising my Jesus for kids who love Him and bring me to Him when I find myself to busy in my pity party to come to Him or even see Him! Thank for the smiles through two of the best gifts you've given me! Please don't let me allow these days to pass without relishing them. It may not be where or how I envisioned, but it is your perfect will for us right now.
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